Chronicles of a Butterfly Girl

So have I had fun????

Wed, 12 Sep 2007 17:48:05 GMT

Oooh yes! Lot's!
Okay so things have been majorly up and down since my recovery. I wanted to go back to College but know that it will be impossible to do what I was doing before so I'm going back next year.
So before I start college I'm working! Granted not heavy work but it's work and I love it more than ever. I get to work with kids and get back to what I love so what more could I want.
I have also got a bit of a new philosophy on things.
I used to worry that I seemed to value certain things, enjoyed things more than other people did. Like going to gigs and stuff, people used to wonder why I went to so many and why I liked music so much. Meeting up with my online friends was another one, although they're not my online friends anymore, they're just my friends.
But I decided who gives a shit yeah? I LOVE going to gigs so I'm going to them, if I love a band more and want to see them more than once then I will. Loads of memories with my best friends are tied to music and concerts so the more memories I can make then the better.
Why be ashamed of something you love just because of what other people think? Embrace it, enjoy it and get on with it, if it makes you happy don't let anyone else ruin it for you by their stupid remarks. It's probably because they are still searching for that thing that makes them happy.

Alot can happen in 5 months...

Sun, 08 Apr 2007 23:03:31 GMT

So this is my second entry and everything has gone up in the air and back down again since my last post.
I can't believe that was 5 months ago, in some ways it feels longer, other ways shorter.
So guess what? I was diagnosed with Skin Cancer! You know when I said I had to go into hospital? Well it was for a biopsy and 2 weeks after I was diagnosed. I went into hospital and had surgery on my foot. I was terrified but they got rid of it and I am now clear. To say I am happy right now is an understatement, but there is one solitary reason why I feel so happy...
I was spiralling after surgery, I was tired, constantly felt like shit and I felt my recovery was slow. Then one day in early february I met someone, only for about ten minutes but I met him. We talked and we laughed and I smiled like I hadn't smiled in months. This won't make sense to you I know because I'm nt explaining who he is but that doesn't really matter to anyone else but me. He saved me, literally! I was becoming so depressed and within those ten minutes he single handedly turned that around. I only hope he knows.
Anyway, I will update more soon with shenanigans about me and enjoying my life for once. Trust me 2007 is going to be amazing because I wil make it so. In some ways 2006 was an amazing year, in others it was the worst year of my life, I will always remember that year but I always want to remember 2007 too for the year I had some of the best fun I'd had in ages!

First Entry

Tue, 21 Nov 2006 14:21:16 GMT

So this is my first post and i'm not entirely sure why I have one of these, I guess I thought it might be fun and a way to vent my frustrations on the world!
So right now do I have any? I guess not, not in the grand scheme of things. I have to go into hospital next week and I'm a complete wimp when it comes to things like that.
I have to go though, even though I'm scared shitless. But I'm taking my ipod and burying myself in the music, like I always do!
Errm, what else can I say?!
Oh at the moment I'm reading 'Wicked' by Gregory Maguire. I'm hoping to see it in the West End next summer Will Young (hopefully) takes over the role of Flyero. I was hoping to see it anyway as last time I went it was two weeks before it opened so I missed the chance. I'm loving the book so far, the characters are great, even Elphaba I'm warming to in a weird way, she's hilarious!
Anyway I'm sorry my first post hasn't been very interesting! I'll write more soon and hopefully it will be more entertaining!
Till then as the marvelously cheesy Ryan Seacrest would say - Over and out!